Where'd you put my symptoms?

Truly, is there anything greater than over-anlayzing every twinge, hunger pain, and wave of nausea in the two week wait (TWW) between ovulation and the anticipated date of your next cycle?

Well this time around, I had almost nothing to read into whatsoever. The only "symptom", which isn't even a text book pregnancy sign, was a weird, heavy feeling in my uterus. It felt like an anchor pulling down on it. Had it not been for the fibroid surgery, I wouldn't even know what my uterus felt like, but this bizarre feeling felt similar to how my recovering uterus felt when I went for a long walk post op.

While others on the baby boards are feeling sore boobs, nausea, exhaustion, I had pretty much nothing. I started to get really discouraged. Despite my lack of symptoms I tested positive on 9dpo and eagerly waited for my symptoms to arrive.

Yes, this seems masochistic, why would I want to feel crappy? Once you have a miscarriage, you stop feeling so much sympathy for people complaining about pregnancy symptoms because the symptoms mean everything is going great, your hormones are ramping up and the baby is growing. I needed some reassurance.

By my 4th night away, I had to test, just to make sure I was still pregnant. I told myself I just need to get through 14dpo, to rule out a chemical pregnancy, and then I would feel more secure.

The test was significantly darker than the barely-a-line for 9dpo. It kept me happy for a couple days, but it didn't quell the craziness.

At first my DH was hesitant to be cute about the baby, which upset me because it made me feel like he didn't think it was going to work out. Then he became so cute (i.e. asking me to pick a letter as we walked around Florence and we would rally baby names back and forth) that I worried that I was setting us both up for major disappointment. Isn't he lucky that he gets to deal with me?

By the time I was 4.5 weeks, I had only the slightest pain in the girls. I started to get really concerned. I wasn't particularly tired and wasn't even sleeping well from the time change.
3 days before we left, the breast pain ramped up and I felt much relief.

At 8am, the day after we returned, I went for a blood test and had my results at 10:30am. I was hoping for my number to be 1408 (based on the doubling of the original 22 beta result) and it was 3598! They said I should come in for an ultrasound this week, my 5th week.

My appointment is in three days and I have to say I am utterly freaked. My breast pain has diminished significantly and I am nervous that when I go on 5weeks 5 days for the ultrasound, it will be too early to see the heartbeat and I will be a wreck until they test again next week.

So to date, my only symptoms are fleeting breast pain, finger nails grown at crazy rate, I wake up hungry in the middle of the night (could be jet lag) and a bit of dizziness when I get out of bed.

I know, I know, be careful what you wish for.